and I’m so happy about it.
I’m finally at the phase where I feel no guilt eating any kind of food (although I have to work on the eating a lot in public thing) and I allow myself to have whatever I want, whenever I want, in whatever quantities.
Of course, this being right the first week of this newly found freedom, I’m practically living off chocolate and cheese and pizza (and I definitely need to go get a ginormous ice cream soon as well), but I know it will pass. After three days of this I already don’t crave chocolate that much anymore. And, believe me or not, I’ve grown tired of dried coconut (gasp!)
I know it will take a while before I taste again all those things I haven’t allowed myself for so long, and all these cravings are gonna make me gain weight for sure; they already have made me gain some.
But it doesn’t matter.
It’s a phase I have to go through if I want to normalize my relationship with food once and for all, and I accept that.
So bring forth the chocolate, and if anyone who wants to join me they’re welcome! ;)